a page frm my diary

wat does one do when all their dreams are shattered?
mayb im hopeless,wat ta hell..whats wrng
wit me? y me alone??
DREAmS>> well guess one musnt hav any...
its a whole waste of time tat only makes u feel
hurt an emotional if u don reach tat target...
mayb i get 2 exicted wit stuff around me
but then don all of us get xcited for certain things?
then y must i face this punishment?
wish i had a blade out here..mayb selfharming
is the cure for my current sadness...
noone an nothing is permanent in life...
they r here 2day an gone 2mrw
y must things bdis way? i hate it........
hw can one just go on wit life livin jus ta moment?
think abt hw ta future wil b without those ppl
who enlighten u 2day.......an im dam sure
it wil hurt,as if lik ta prick frm a pin.....
y do we giv our hearts and minds to people then?
when u arent even remotely sure of
tuggin wit them for a lifetime.?
why? why? why?
shit!i hate cryin an now im becum prone to cryin
cryin to vent out ta sadness deep inside......
what do i lack god? y do ppl do this to me?