catch22 positions r killin me........

its boarin out here.......dunno im suddenly so very confused confused to ta core......dunno wat must i do,wat i musnt b doin...shit man dis life is FU**in......though sumtimes its really nice sumtimes des catch 22 positions kill me.......jus nw i hav cum bak frm a feeling tat i acted lika cheap third grade pros wit my best bud...[okie well guys nw don start imaginin sick things! im a goody goddy gal..]]dunno wat must i do.. do knw wat life expects outta me...i feel lost......loads a thoughts in me dunno who to confide on... y cant jus life b a way lot simpler...wer answers to ta questions we ask r seeked through sum wer... by god....guess only wen humans r free frm desires wil dey ever b happy..an i had 2many an tats wer ta prob started.....

y hadnt i joined NID? should i try it again? hw wil life b der if so i get selected? even if its ma dream to b der wat if ta ppl around r gr8 [sarcatic]....r mayb i should hav tried to do CAtterin r hOTel management....i don knw if i likin wat im doin nw....not even a 1% of talent r art talent is needed as yet in my kinda course...its endlessly buggin...mayb i shuld hav joined wit my bestbuds 4 b arch.....seems lik everyone is goin on top of ta ladder an i still stand der down seein an questionin if i wil ever b able to climb to...wish my bro is here with me,,,hes 2 far away to give me support 4 al my ddilemas in life...its so lonely at home here my parents r too busy for me...jus a hi an a bye an hw didya do ur exams wats t a next exam an hw long r ur hols r ta only converstion between me an my parents...i knw dey r doin der best for me...but then i dunno life is so buggin ,fu***in,confusin an ironic................